I had my first “Oh no. I can’t do this. I’ve got to get out of here,” thought last night during our weekly three-hour CASA training. We had a panel of folks from SRS, St. Francis (services) and TFI (foster care).
Our SRS panel representative handed out photos of cases they investigated. One was a little child’s bottom, probably about the age of 4 or 5 with bruises on their back, bottom and legs. On the bottom of the photo it said “2×4 and belt.”
The photo looked so much like my girls. I immediately had to hold back tears thinking about this child enduring being hit by a 2×4. It hit so close to home. These kids are just like mine. They are little and fragile and trusting.
The panel kept talking and my internal voice said, “This is too hard. You can’t do this. How will you handle this?” I made myself refocus and listen, but even now I still get teary eyed and wonder how I’ll do it.
Lord, help me have the strength to fight through the worry and sick feelings so I can champion for kids who might not have any other voice in the system.